wow i am so tired and yet depressed at the same time... god i really just want to crawl into a hole for a week until finals are over... i am so sick of school and my bf... he his so fucking annoying!! all he ever does is piss me off and he's paranoid that i will dump him.... which he shuld be but still not to a point that makes me want to any sooner... where there isnt attraction there is nothing, and where there is nothing there is nothing to lose or yet to gain... man i seriously need to be alone for a while without him callign me to tell me i sound depressed! i know i sound depressed i am! fucking retard... OMG... i need to break up with him sooo bad and yet i cant seem to because i know he is in love with me and i dont want to hurt him! GOD, my life is seriously spiraling out of control right know and all i want is to be left alone to sort through it without any disruptions! I WANT TO BE SINGLE and i want to sort out my LIFE that my mom and boyfriend seem to want to live for me!